I am a recipe for disaster :-S
I am sure I did upset some people....!
Someone today showed me something and was like I hope "this time" you will say something "positive" about it... WTH!
Another someone said something really harsh to me earlier today :-( Someone I dont even know!!
My dear friend R.O. told me its the Sunday blues... I think its more than that! Its more of 2009 blues.. started with a car accident + health issues in the family + things I cannot say + things I cannot explain + people.... hmmmm who did things that seemed to be simple to them but not to me and its hurting me badly!
Its all those mixed emotions and feelings of the surroundings that are upsetting me badly! Yes I am smiling and my day seems to be going just fine but I am not telling ANYONE what is really wrong! Its killing me, and I wanna deal with it alone... so there you have it! I am NOT fine! I am NOT OK! I am upset and I am feeling down....
HB... I have no idea why the things I say come out like word vomit! You are a special friend to me and I did not mean to bother you in any way or get you in trouble! God knows what you mean to me and how I see the true friend in you! You are the one I can depend on with no fear... I feel like crying just typing those words :-S
Mrs. Doubtfire... I know even if you read this you would not know who the hell I am talking about, but I do feel that you resemble Mrs. Doubtfire (and I do see some Kramer in you too)... See... I am doing it again! Being mean and calling you all that! But you are driving me crazy! I know you are a nice lady but I can't seem to find a common ground for us where we find mutual understanding.. I try but you staring at me sometimes for no reason freaks me out! And it makes me vomit words as well :-S eeeeek!
"Someone" I vented to about what is happening regarding the health issues in the family. I dont know if you know who you are, but you are awesome! I mean it! "You dont just say things to make me feel better" yet you say things and you do make me feel better... Thanks :'-) Oh and you are super funny in your own ways!
And to all my unanswered calls/messages/email please know that I do acknowledge it all but I swear to God I have no time to answer you.....
Oh and many more things I cannot even start to list.....
12 comments:
Wee laykoon ana sebab min il asbab :$
I go through times when everything in my life is wrong and nothing is what I would like it to be. Everyone does! But what we should try very hard to do is squeeze ourselves between the bad things and look for the good things in our life. What you're grateful for, what you're proud of, enjazatich, your dreams and ambitions. 9adgeeni ra7 tensain il ashya2 ily mza3litich o tsa3dich t7ileen mashaklich MUCH better.
HF-
No.. its someone else, its HB (someone I actually know) so dont worry! I am so proud of myself and where I am and what I have accomplished but there are things that are killing me that I dont wanna discuss with anyone!
There is nothing much hurting than seeing a friend hurt.
Some time alone thinking, and some praying oughta make you feel better.
i want to know what was il "things U cannot say " :P
Word Vomit ...is my daily worries... I should always think before i speak...
Bashar-
Thanks
Scorpion-
I just canNOT say!
Razan Suliman-
Its not me and thats why its upsetting me
allah ye3eenich weshafy marthakom and inshallah soon you can be better than better
Someone word vomited on me today - and I don't know why! What she said was ignorant . . . and well, typical of her. I thought of a phrase a Kuwaiti friend told me a long time ago - Hali Walli (!) which is like "an-annoying-little-fly-just-flew-by" and that's how I feel - I am not going to let this low-class wretch get my attention.
Hmmm. Guess it's too late, hmm?
You bring so much good to so many people, Ansam, always, your focus is on the greater good. Don't let the small things get you down.
....meh ... they're prolly just having a bad day .... then again they could also just be a bunch of bastards .... only time will tell I suppose ....
I think you need a vacation ... may be Some place like Bhutan ... relax for a while ...
Don't shoulder the weight of your worries by yourself, big matters are dwarfed if you tackle them in numbers.
Every coin has two sides, but don't forget there's also the edge that's the same all the way around...
Sometimes the only thing in common you have with others are the differences that exist. Think outside the box and you can leverage that to your advantage.
Best of luck ;]
PS. This was not found on the back of a milk carton...I promise...
Ansam ;
As long as you are good in cooking you will always find friends around you
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